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Waiting on God’s Timing

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“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6 ESV

First thing’s first: listen.

Don’t rush whatever it is that you want.  If you are clearly being lead to by the Holy Spirit to “wait” there’s a reason for it!

If it’s not so clear whether the answer is “wait” or “no.” That doesn’t mean keep trying.  You can put it aside for now to see if God leads you back to it. If not it wasn’t meant to be in the first place.

In the mean time, grow closer in your relationship with God, listen for His leading and grow in your relationships with others.

If it’s others you’re waiting on, be patient and graceful with them.  Reflect God’s grace and love with them through it. Help them, distance yourself when you need to and allow them to do the same, but always be there to encourage them in their faith as well, even if you can’t do it face to face.

It is not following God’s plan for your life to disobey Him and rush anything before He had it planned for you.  Don’t, it will be better for your life and significantly better for your relationship with Christ to obey Him.

Second, be willing to allow God to work in this season of your life!

He’s going to work whether you “let” Him or not, but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t fully submit to His authority over your life so that He can better use you. You can grow significantly in a season of waiting.  They can be some of the sweetest seasons when you look back on them, even though they don’t feel like it at the time.

Even at 18 I’ve had enough seasons of waiting to prepare me for a lifetime. They’re not fun, and they may seem like you’re at a standstill.  They’re often a season of immense growth, though. But God’s always at work, even if you don’t see it.  We may not be able to see His work today, tomorrow, or during our lifetime, but His plan will prevail.

“The LORD of Heaven’s Armies has spoken — who can change his plans? When his hand is raised, who can stop him?” Isaiah 14:27 NLT

We serve an all-powerful God, so when He is leading you to wait on something, there’s good reason.  Trust in that.  There’s better for the moment or possibly even for the future..

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Nittany Lion For Life

Photo I took at a math team competition my senior year of high school.
Photo I took at a math team competition my senior year of high school.

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Tomorrow, I start my Sophomore year at Penn State New Kensington.

First of all, where did the time go? Just yesterday, I attempted to throw my graduation cap up and watched it fly across the room.

Time goes by too fast. I tell the kids at church to never grow up because it’s a trap. And it truly is.

Secondly, most of you know I’m changing my major. My senior year of high school, I was pretty sure I knew what I wanted to do. I wanted to be a police officer, to risk my life for others. I took a class offered by a local police officer at the high school along with other students. I was so sure.

I took criminal justice classes through my Freshman year of college. But I found myself kind of getting anxious thinking about it. I’d like to think I’m the kind of person who could put their life on the line for others, but I am not the type of person whose name I want my family to see on the news because I have been killed due to people rioting police officers, or anything of the like. Apparently killing police officers is sadly the new trend.

Plus, it was the movie Die Hard that made me really anxious. I mean, I know my chances are slim, but I would die in that elevator shaft.

It was really scary being in college, thinking you knew what you wanted to do with your life and you find out that this isn’t what you wanted.

But now, it’s all good now.

I have loved to write my whole life and when I was trying to figure out what I wanted do, something always brought me back to writing. I work in a library for God’s sake. Something has always led me back to a writing and publishing field.

So after giving it a long thought, I have decided to withdraw myself from the AOJ field and jump in to the Communications (Journalism) major, hoping to become a book editor someday. I’ve got my heart set on this and I know God has been with me in making this decision.

I remember back to a few years ago someone said I was going to be a world changer. I do get a little bummed when I think of that, but hey, who’s to say book editors can’t change the world?

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To My 15-Year-Old Self

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If I could tell my 15-Year-Old Self a few things about the past few years;

First and foremost, just keep going. You’ll get there.  

The next two years might seem like you’re walking through hell and you won’t know which way to turn, so you’ll just want to lay down and take a nap instead.  Don’t.  Pick up a book and read or pick up a pen and write.  I wish you wouldn’t have wasted your precious time.

It’s okay to ask for help. 

With anything and everything, you waited way longer than you should have.  Ask sooner, it’s okay.

You’ll lose friends, but you’ll get through that too. 

I’m not saying don’t try.  I wish you would’ve tried harder.  But the friends that stick around are good ones.

Life never was and never will be about material possessions. 

Give to others, show them how much you care about them, and tell them about your faith.  Create relationships that last.  That’s what matters.  What doesn’t matter?  Stuff.

Remember saying “God will use this?” He will.

Just keep trusting Him, always.  You don’t have to be angry, but it’s okay to be mad that you are where you are as well.

It’s okay that you’re not happy, but don’t stay there. 

For whatever reason you’re not happy, there’s a reason.  You’re walking through this dark world around you and you know that there is so much more than this, so at times it makes you miserable.  Don’t hide it, deal with it.  Be honest with those around you, they’ve probably experienced similar things.

Don’t fight God’s plan for your life. 

It’s not worth the pain and confusion it’ll cause you.  (Hint: you’ll never win anyways.)  There’s a real battle between what your flesh desires and what God has for your life.  The day you decide that what you want more is what God’s will is for your life, will be one of the best days of your life.  I promise. Find your worth in Him and Him alone.

On that note, don’t make so many plans, because God’s going to change them ALL

anyways. 

 

“This is the day the LORD has made; We will rejoice and be glad in it.” Psalm 118:24

Every day, find something to thank God for.  It’s not that hard, I promise.  It’s being grateful for the little things that grows into being more joyful in the longterm.  But when you find yourself without any joy, don’t let that define you.  Let the Word of God tell you who you are.  Not anything you’ve been through, not anyone else, nothing but God deserves to define your worth.

Step outside of yourself, tell people about your faith, love others.  Not everything turns out as you wanted but God’s working everything out His way.  You’ll eventually learn to live with the beautiful mess that you will learn to trust that His will is greater than anything you could ask or imagine. 

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Number 70

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Writing this post was one of the hardest I’ve ever had to do.

Photo Credit: WTAE
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Monday, August 4, 2014. I was at work and was happy because it was my friend’s birthday. I didn’t know that that week was going to be a shocking one.

Wednesday, August 6, 2014: two days later. I was packing a bag for a lock in at my church. I didn’t know the next few hours would forever alter my life. I was picked up by a friend and we were on our way to the church. I was so excited for the lock in. What I would find out in a few hours would make me question why bad things happen to good people.

I was at the lock-in in a group meeting when at 9:40 p.m., I got the text above. I felt my phone buzz in my pocket but patiently waited to check because I was in a meeting. When it was over, I checked my phone and saw this text.

 

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A boy we went to school with, Noah Cornuet, was at football practice and collapsed on the football field. He died from what they later discovered was a right atrial myxoma, a rare heart tumor. He was 16. I was absolutely shocked. I couldn’t comprehend the message I just received. My best friend has just told me that someone we went to school with had died. I thought it was a dream. This had never happened before. It’s not something you think will happen at your school. There I was at a church lock in having the time of my life with a 100+ kids while another I went to school with’s life just ended. The weird thing was that a student had died during my older sister’s time in high school, Noah passed during my time in high school, and three years later, a student would pass during my younger sister’s time in high school.

I couldn’t sleep that night. I was actively up til 3 am playing games with my friends. At 3, I decided to hit the hay. But I couldn’t sleep. Maybe it was because I wasn’t home in my comfy bed and instead I was lying on a barely carpeted floor, or it was because everyone was up making noise. Or maybe it was because I was thinking about Noah.

It has been two years since that day and I think about him a lot; why this happened, what could’ve been done to prevent it, wishing I could go back a few years and warn him. But I know I can’t. The day I was forced to say goodbye was a hard one. I wrote this that day:

“Today is the day that I, along with many others, am forced to say goodbye to a great boy with such a big, caring heart. A boy who put others before himself. A boy who had such a bright future, but was taken from him so quickly. A man who was like a giant teddy bear. A man who had such a strong, Christian heart. I have cried with my peers and seen my teachers cry as we have faced this sudden tragedy. Today we say goodbye to Noah Cornuet. May you rest easy, buddy. I know you’re up there with the big man upstairs looking down on all of us right now. I miss you so much and I hope I get to see you again someday.”

I know I say everything happens for a reason but it’s hard to find one for this.

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